webcam2*

playing webcam with her now , fuck she's so adorable when she do all those faces . the faces that I missed and yeah . She blew me away :) I love u Nadirah.

webcam*

she opened her webcam and my heart beats fast and faster for no reason . heh .

webcam*

Best Love Movie*

Ok honestly am telling you that am not seriously into Malay's Scary Movie , Love Movie but I do into with Malay's Comedy . Seriously Scary Movie and Love movie is the most pathetic movie that they ever done . seriously . but somehow . today and tonight . Ahmad Idham the director just proved to me that Malay's Love Story Movie is the best :) "SYURGA CINTA"

Syurga Cinta has been created by MIG production and the director of Syurga Cinta which is Ahmad Idham . The story is about this one man(awal) who live with his very social life until one day his friends dare and bet 5k for him to tackle a girl which is pure Islamic Woman(Heliza Aftatau:P ) that wearing " tudung" .He have to break her heart infront of them and they give him 1month only to tackle that girl Than one of his friend showed the "tudung" woman and suddenly he falling in love at the first sight . haha . and after that they know each other very well and the woman teached him everything about Islam and stuff until he became a good nice and Half Islamic Man . and his life totally changed . but at the end of the which is end of the month . Awal have to break her heart infront of his friends and finally he did it . pergh . After that he regret what he has done to her and found that his life was empty and nothing without that girl and finally he go and get that girl and ask for forgiveness . and yeah at the end of the movie .. He propose that girl and yeah finissssssssssssshhh ... haha Wtv it is . THUMBS UP *

Best Love Movies*

went out*

go go go back home . its late :P . haha yes am home now . hahaha. just arrived home from ou - sunway .. since afternoon I left my house and I went to ou with Irwan . haha . fuck jam gila sial ou . cam siot . there's alot of people shopping there at Jusco because today is a Jusco member's day . So fucking full downstairs. but fine wtv . We walked and jalan jalan kt ou cam orang bodoh smua and ate BK until Full . haha den after that , waiting for my sister from her office IBM . We met a Tgv and went back home . aha but after we reached my house . My sister and I had a big fight . " jgnla macam macam.. I want to use your car " .." NO . NOT MY CAR . USE mom's car" ... " dont u dare fight with me .. Yap yang isi minyak so jgn mengade " haha at last she gave up . HAAH . so big HAAHAH with Irwan after that. haha 9.00 we arrived at pyramid and met Irwan's friend . and he gave us "MASUK FREE" wayang . haha :P fuck man then we watched "SYURGA CINTA" .haha

spike*

sitting here all bymyself at restoran rumahku near by tasik kelana jaya is the best feeling ever. its like so calm and the breeze .. pergh . layaann . but the sad part is ... its going to close soon . ive got another 30mins b4 they close this restoran . but what can I do . I came late .. heh . :)

kusut*

urggggggggggggggggggghhh fuck man . there's alots of problems that ruined my life now . its make me hard to survive . babi ahhhh ! lepas satu , satu masalah . pukimak setan babi ! aaaaaaaaaaahhh sakit gila sial hati ,, pukimaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkk .. that's so not fair oke ! semua cam pukimak je . i cant take it all by myself . need someone to be there and hold me :( I really really need someone right now to talk . I need someone that really really know me deep inside of my heart. actually i really really need her ! the one that i can call my bestfriend and everything . but she's not here and i just made her mad at me last night ;( . I didnt mean too .. but what can i do . I have to try to handle all it by myself la :O . urghhh ... Oh god . please give me the strength . I really really need it :S pleaseee?

heart*

A day seems like so fast and night seems like so long . I'm thinking about the way she smile.. the way she kissed .. the way she always do something cute . the way she always do adorable faces when she's angry sad and those pretty face. haha I guess it's still the same . She looked adorable in every faces that she do . Somehow . It has been so long I didnt see all those pretty faces. I guess I missed it so bad . I missed the way she hugged me , the way she teased me , the way she laugh . haha . she's cute and so adorable when you really really so into her . She's different . way way diff from other girls out there. She's got alots of cute faces, walking style . haha . it's complicated . only me . who knows her very well . what's the best for her and what's not . She's perfect in every way . yeah . am asking myself . what's up with this cute lilttle shorty ? why am so into her . why I still cannot forget about her ?

why?

I guess I've found the answer.She's different . Different gila . and something pulled me about this girl , it's hard to explain in this blog . Deep inside my heart. There's only girl that can do anything to this guy ! She can blow away egos , take my breathe away and many more . She's the one who really really important to me . Maybe Im still weak now . Weak about this love story ! because she's my weaknesses . haha. OMG she's so powerfull man . There's nothing can stop me from loving that pendek ., but IF .. If one day . One this beautiful girl appears from nowhere and take my breathe away .. maybe that time I'll stop from loving Maizatul Nadirah . but if there's one wish that I could wish .. I would wish that Maizatul Nadirah will be my everything . I mean .. She can always be mine and I wanna live with her until the day I die . IF I COULD la kn .. but as you know . Like I always say . that I was born into this world .. for Love Care Cherish every moment with Maizatul Nadirah .. I would die and I would take a bullet for you . And hell yeah . Im taking and into drugs now.my drugs is her because She's my drug . my favv drug . :) comes with package. hihi ,but somehow . She always make me happy but at the same time , She makes me sad . and am in sorrowful moment now because of her . heh.

Maizatul Nadirah ,
Do you know , everyday and the rest of your life , There's someone that wouldnt stop loving you and care about you eventhough he had a bad moments just to care and make you happy? The guy that spent his time just to comfort you everyday eventhough he's busy.. The guy who doesnt even care about his feeling when you talked about something that can break his heart?

but

Just listen and read this ,,
the guy who will wait you in a rain just to be there for you
the guy who couldnt fight the egos and surrended his heart just to call and hear your voice?
the guy who care cherish and love you every min and sec his life .
the guy who will go and make surprise for you when he have a chance to do it
the guy who care about your feeling and even couldnt hurt your feeling eventhough lilbit
the guy would do everything and anything just for you . only you


The guy that thinks that you are his strength and weaknesses .. that guy is me . Muhammad Asraf.

hurting*

I just got back back from hexagon cc Aman Suria . Playing dota and trying to cheer up myself and trying to forget what happened just now . I guess it hurt me . Felt unappreciated . Am wondering myself . Am I doing the right thing ? Did I fooling myself by doing that? hah . its hard to tell . All messed up . I even couldnt sleep since yesterday . thinking about you. think what's the best for you. and still trying to take your back . why why and why ? about just now . Babe, is it hard for you to put all those stuff on the ground and just hug me on the spot ? Is it hard for you to do that ? I just wanted it so bad beacause if you hug me ..it will be nice for me and I can feel that you're really2 appreciate what I have done . ok I know that you appreciated it . but .. umph . I sakit hati sangat . tatau asal . and you dont even mention about the bracelet and the cake and the teddy . urgh . Babe you know I've through hard time today just to buy all those present for you? Last night I couldnt sleep just to think about what am I going to do about ur surprise . heh . and now I dont even know what am thinking. I even couldnt think proper . urgh ... I went to cyberjaya and wanted to do surprise birthday for you . but at the end of the day ? " ow awak I kat bawah hostel you . cyberia " den you replied? " ow oke" "hahbetul ke" ? . You didnt even get excited about that . haah? I thought you will be happy or what , but .. heh . pastu you turun bawah and met me with your friends . and I thought oke . . she's here . omg omg what am going to do ? should I hug or what . oke fine . tape la . tayah hug la . dia ngan kawan dia . after that .. we met and talk talk forawhile and I bagi barang kt you . Babe . cant you see that time I need you ? I need your hug . just 1 hug dacukup bagi I . Im in a problem .. cant you see in my eyes? or you tak kenal I ? bila i ada problem bila i tak ? heh ... tatau ah ape i tulis ni . hah . but the question and the bottom line is . why? why u always do this to me ? I susah gila oke nk pegi cyberjaya . but i pergi jgak utk buat surprise for my shorty , its oke for me utk susah for u . but u ? at least la kn . at least. please ahh . hang around and talk to me for 10 mins or what . ni tak . u always penting kn ur friends smua , but im not blaming u on that . and maybe ure in the middle of something and i kacau . but hey , can you freeze that and jmpa i kejap ? talk to me ? but entah la . I pon tatau nk cakap ape lagi . its hard for me to say , but now ... ape i sedih sangat ni is . you tak mention about the bracelet and the cake and the teddy, and u tak hug i pon time we met just now . u tak talk to me just for awhile . aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh . wanted to kill someone ah . I dont know what else i can do with this feeling . Its like . Its kelling me slowly deep inside .

tears

A thousand words couldn't bring you back,
I know because I tried.
Neither could a thousand tears,
I know because I cried.
You left behind a broken heart,
and happy memories too,
but I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.