here it goes...my first secret ! WHY *

1.43 a.m . chatting and waiting for her to call me now . she used to called me and kacau kacau me when she cannot sleep . haha miss that little shorty lah ! but hey everything changed . yeah things changed. ALOT ! I have to accept that she is not going to call me and kacau kacau me lagi . :( and yesterday March 1st .. for no reason .. actually have reason. haha :p all by sudden .. my heart is missing that shorty . wondering what she is doing . is she ok out there? is she happy ? but i guess she is happy with her new world. and me? haha have to face all these shits alone and with pain in my heart . hahaha . ;( why why why i have to face it by myself? why im still thinking about her? I just want her to get out of my mind. pleaseee ! for once..but I can't . Its not easy and its hard. urghh. Maizatul Nadirah . Am missing youu . yes I do . why you have to be so meannnnnn?? WHY WHY WHY Nadirah. I love you . eventhough you hurting me this bad but im still in love with you . You are my number #1 girl in myheart . but the question is .. why I still feel that love ? why ? I dont want to love you anymore. You hurting me like HELL . Am bleeding inside . I dont have a mood to do anything . accept for thinking about you. URgh . I HATE YOU ! ;( ......... Sayangg...." I MISS YOU I LOVE YOU " ... can you tell me that u LOVE and MISS me? can you say it ? but i guess your not going to say because you are happy with someone else. :) am happy for you baby ! YES I DO ! .. babee... I want to tell you my secret that I used to tell you. AM HURTING AND HEARTBREAKING when I see your pictures . You made me cry when Im looking at those pictures of you..the pictures of you with that guy . because I used to be that guy that hold you and carry you . I used to be that guy that made u laugh and smile non-stop . but things changed.and am not that guy anymore. ;') but babe. if you are happy with your life now. Am happy for you (: .